When did I realize my relationship was over?
When the witty, sarcastic texts that were “intelligent”
were now recognized as rude.
When the late night phone calls that woke me up to chat
were now ignored.
When his horrible singing and guitar playing that was “just so cute”,
was now nothing but complete annoyance.
When the hours without response at work were tolerable,
were now intolerable.
When his anger and command “came from a caring” place
was now recognized as his own selfishness and insecurity.
When his indecisiveness meant that he was “open-minded and self reflective”
instead of just being a reckless asshole.
But when did I really realize that my relationship was over?
When I woke up knowing I couldn’t give a damn if he was in my life anymore.