I AM CURRENTLY

I got this from one of my favorite bloggers I follow: http://xjustanotherteenblogger.wordpress.com/ so I decided to do it too!

 

Making :: a list of all the things I need to accomplish this week. (lots of career and senior year junk!)
Drinking :: English Tea, aghhhh so delicious, especially right before bed.
Reading :: new apps available for my mac, deciding whether or not to download that maverick x, it has some pretty good reviews!
Wanting :: someone to give me a massage, because who doesn’t want that?  I’ve actually never had a professional one.
Looking :: for a sign that things are going to be okay.
Playing :: Restaurant story.  My life is literally a nerdy child game, gotta make those cakes all day everyday.
Wasting :: my time thinking about people that don’t think about me.
Eating :: really healthy lately.  Like seriously recording everything and under 1200 calories.  Gotta keep going for the 30 day fitness challenge 😉
Wishing :: that I could lose more weight faster!  It’s hard being patient and waiting for results!
Enjoying :: that I’m growing up and starting to make my own decisions and becoming who I want to be.
Waiting :: until I can go home for Thanksgiving and see my family.  I really miss seeing everyone, especially my parents.  It’s sad how long you took parents for granted in high school and middle school, and then in college it just hits you how important they really are.
Liking :: the fact that I have a sleep playlist on my itunes so I can drink my tea and listen in peace.  It helps me wind down for bed time.
Wondering :: how the job fair is going to go this Friday, gotta keep an open mind!
Loving :: this vanilla candle next to me.  Want to make me happy?  Buy me a candle.
Hoping :: I didn’t butcher that finance test.  It did not go how I expected and I just hope that I got a C, at least.
Marveling :: at how lucky I am.  I’m 21 years old and have experienced so many things in my life and have met such incredible people that have changed me.  14 countries, 7 mission trips, and college do that to you I guess.
Needing :: a tan because I’m pretty sure by Christmas I’m going to be translucent.
Smelling :: that damn amazing vanilla candle!!
Wearing :: the most ugly outfit you’ve ever seen.  Oversized Green Bay Packers sweatshirt, gray and pink yoga capri’s and royal blue fuzzy socks.
Following :: rules that I’ve made for myself is harder than you think, especially when I’m the one that’s made the rules.
Noticing :: that I probably should start going back to church.  Praying isn’t enough sometimes.
Knowing :: this is my last year of college and I need to keep living it up and saying Yes to whatever adventures come my way.
Thinking :: about where I should work out tomorrow, in the gym?  Run outside?  Hmmm
Bookmarking :: recipes!  I have found my new love for cooking and experimenting and surprisingly evernote is the best place to record it all.  I find a lot of them on blogs, pintrest and cooking light!
Opening :: my journal.  I need to keep writing, it’s an outlet that never fails.
Feeling :: a little sleepy, but so ready to get this week started!  My attitude is not the usual Monday blues!

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Women and Ex-Boyfriends

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Why do we do it ladies?

Why do we talk to our ex-boyfriends?

Maybe it was you reaching out to them to see if they’re the same or how they’ve been.  Maybe it was them coming to you saying they missed you.  And for a split second I bet you thought, it won’t hurt.  It won’t matter talking to them this one time.  You like the mystery of not knowing where it will go, the exhilarating feeling of not knowing where the conversation will take you.  The thought of re-kindling could have even briefly crossed your mind.  But deep deep down we all know that it’s a recipe for disaster.

You start talking and one of two things happens.

1. You develop a spark and continue to pursue it until one of you starts to remember the reason you broke up and old wounds are re-opened and it ends worse than the first time.

2. You realize how over it really is and how all feelings are dead because wow, he is an idiot.

Now I’m not saying that talking to every single ex you have will end this way or produce these results, because sometimes it can lead to a content place, even provide the closure you never had.  But from my own experience, the majority never ends well with most ex’s and I can’t help but feel that I have a lot of lady-friends that can agree with me.

My business law professor once said, “Nothing good happens after 2am.  If it’s past 2am and you’re up, just go straight to bed.”  I find a correlation with what we need to remember about ex-boyfriends, girls.  Nothing good is going to happen trying to re-kindle a past relationship (especially if it ended up badly), so let it go.  No matter how curious you are, no matter what feelings are being brought back, save yourself the pain and the time.  Walk away.  Delete the text. Go to bed.

Bedtime Questions (these were pretty lame)

Violate My Privacy.
1. Did you wake up cranky?
Are you kidding me? I woke up at 11am, there would be no reason to be cranky waking up that late!

2. Would you date any of your ex-boyfriends again?
Yes, there is one.

3. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
I like both, but my closest friends are girls.

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
I do it all the time! I’m trying to do it more at school too but many people look at me like I’m crazy.

5. Can you commit to one person?
In the past, I don’t know it I could fully ever do it. I think I got bored easily and was insecure to make someone my everything. I was always scared that they would hurt me so I always needed to be prepared in case they did instead of putting all of my faith and trust into it. I’m much different now and overcame some of those obstacles.

6. How do you look right now?
Like hell. Still have my workout clothes on and haven’t showered in a while (sorry, it’s true) so obviously I smell great too.

7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
Under armor running pants, a sports bra, and a Adidas jacket

8. How often do you listen to music?
Every single day! Although I lost my apple headphones so now I just walk around with my hot pink beats on.

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
Jeans.

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2014?
I doubt it, but 2014 could change dramatically. Again, you never know. Life hits you fast and hard.

11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
Very social

12. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
Dang Nabbit.

13. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Yes and No. Yes to deep serious feelings, no to surface feelings. It’s weird.

14. Can you drive a stick shift?
I’ve tried, wouldn’t say I’m a champ at it or anything.

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
I do. I think if you say you don’t you’re lying. Nobody likes to be talked bad about.

16. Are you going out of town soon?
I’m going home in October so it’ll be pretty soon :). Otherwise I’m starting to plan my spring break vaca but that’s not until march!

17. When was the last time you cried?
A couple days ago, no fun there.

18. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
Haha yes! Literally has happened so many times to me.

19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
Yes, dark dark brown.

20. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
Take an operations management quiz. Blah:

21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
I’m trying to eat healthy and I’m going to bed hungry. No bueno.

22. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?
No. I usually end up liking people that I’ve never known as a friend–maybe that’s my problem!!
23. Are you nice to everyone?
Not everyone but I try to be. I really do.

24. What are you sitting on right now?
My comfy bed!

25. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
Yes, been there and done that.

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
Something like that yeah. I’ve always tried to get past it and make it work.

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
Christina Marie

28. Do you get a lot of colds?
Not really, ever since I got my tonsils out last summer, I’ve barely been sick! Yahoo!

29. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?
Yes, all you can do is blush briefly and laugh it off.

30. Does anyone hate you?
Someone somewhere might but I’m not sure of anyone in particular.

31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
Yeah, it’s called my pops.

32. Do you like watching scary movies?
Totally! I love the ones that don’t just scare you on the spot but make you think about it later and mentally freak you out.

33. Are you a jealous person?
In relationships, yes.

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
Junior year of high school.

35. Did you have a dream last night?
I did! It was so weird, I can’t remember a lot of it but it had to do with a quest to get to a McDonald’s with a mcgriddle because so many of them were running out. There were castles in it too, I’m not sure where that all came from and I barely ever eat at McDonald’s so I don’t even know.

36. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
Christina, my dog, usually my parents

37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
It’s possible.

38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
Yes

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Maybe

40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
It was okay, today was way better 🙂

41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
Yes I was. But it was going downhill fast.

42. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
No! My life is so much better now! My self esteem is better and I feel more of a sense of purpose.

43. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?
Probably just talking until we fell asleep.

44. What’s the best part about school?
Sounds super lame, but learning. I love learning about how things relate to the real world.

45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
Toooooo many!

46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?
Not really anymore. Haha but I’ve written friends hand written letters in class.

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
Don’t we all??

48. Were you single over the last summer?
Nope.

49. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
Sleeping 😉

50. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?
Tracy is a hot momma!!